For the past few day, I couldn't stop thinking of my muses.
There are many beautiful people in the world. Super stars, topmodels, idols...etc. They are all very stunning. But until now, I have only got 2 girls who I can claim them as my muses. They are just normal people. You may even not label them as beauties.
One of them was my classmate, she had perfect skin...nearly transparent skin, just like the white crystal ball, very beautiful. You can even see her blood vessels beneath the flesh. I won't deny that I want to see her without clothes. Imagine she will be like a pearl, a diamond, sparks in front of us.
I do remember everytime when I was travelling on the train, I would always look at the building on the hill where she used to live. But soon, people told me she moved to another district. And now, we are studying in different universities. It is nearly impossible to encounter her on the train anymore. As I told you, we are just classmate, not friend. So we haven't meet each other since then.
Or to be more accurate, I know I will never see her again.
Another one is a senior student at my high school. The first time we met was in a dojin event. She was introduced by my friend. Not long later, I discovered we actually studied in the same high school. Oh God, for studying 5 years there, why I had never noticed her?
She always wore a mask. Maybe she had long term illness. That's why she was skinny and thin. But I saw her face for few times when she was having her lunch far away from the canteen. She has a pair of huge and round eyes, pointed chin, like a skeleton--looking ill. She is not a healthy, charming girl as my first muse. But yes, she looks great for me. She makes me want to touch her chin so much.
I know I should learn from my first muse--I never want to be just a passer-by in her life.
Because of her, I inherited her post at the school. So I could have a reason to get her phone number and get closer to her--knowing her by knowing her job. Do I sound like a sick person? Maybe she noticed my crazy thought, or she disliked me. In fact, we were just in a relationaship of the senior and junior. She's always in a far distance from me. How could I be so greedy? Besides, that was her final year at the high school. Then one year later, my second muse disappeared in my life again.
I know she hasn't entered any university. She chose to study media and animation in another place.
And now I am studying in muLti-media design. Somehow, I can't tell why I am here. Is it because of her? I do know...maybe. Maybe I just want to be like her.
You may think I am lovesick. But I can tell you, they are just my muses. I never think of being a girlfriend of neither one of them. As I am afraid people will misunderstand that, I never tell to anybody who they are. But, maybe for memorising them, I decide to tell you there are such people once existed in a miss nobody's life.
Hoping they are happy and healthy right now. So do you, friends.